I think it's funny how when you try to write an emotional, heart-felt, spill-your-guts-to-the-one-you-used-to-love (or really like) letter, nothing comes out right the way you had it written in your head. And so you feel incompetent, like you should give up. But it nags at you, forever and ever. So you cry, and then feel stupid, remembering everything you're trying to tell him within the boundaries of some stupid legible letter. You wish you could write your thoughts down as they come along, scattered and broken, missing information but you know you can't. You don't want to scare him away... you just want to let him know what it is he has done to you. And with this you're breaking that promise you made to yourself, and you're regretting writing this down... for nothing sounds right and everything is JUST FUCKING WRONG!!!