My mom doesn't know JACK SHIT about me. She doesn't know ANYTHING and I want her to fucking stop pretending like she does! SHE DOESN'T! And I'm glad I fucking told her so! And I'm glad I told my stepdad she doesn't know crap, and that neither does he. They DON'T know me. They don't know who I am, how I am, what I think, how I react... the only thing they know from me is anger. Because I HATE them. I hate them BOTH the way they can get. They're BOTH ASSHOLES and I hate the fact that they can be that way. They're hypocrites, and I hate the way I feel like there is a conspiracy against me here.

He misinterprets something I say with no meaning behind it while I'm in a good mood TOTALLY WRONG and runs off like a little bitch to my mom and complains and says he doesn't want to take me to work anymore. So my mom says she's going to call the ladies and tell them not to pick me up, that I will take the bus. And I feel like fucking MURDERING my mom because she's a bitch. She's a bitch for never believing a word that comes out of her own daughter's mouth. She is a bitch because she tells herself AND me that she knows me.. when in reality she doesn't know ANYTHING. NOTHING. AT ALL. And there's no exaggeration when I say at all. Just because she gave birth to me doesn't mean she's my best friend. She's a bitch because she always kicks me when I'm high.. I am NEVER happy for long. I should've known this fucking cursed day was going to hell. I hate EVERYONE right now. I don't care who the fuck you are. And I hate how when I confronted him about all this stupid bullshit, at the end my voice started cracking and my face got red, and I started crying so I left. I hate it. I probably could have said so much more. So much more to spite his stupidity. I hate them both. Why the fuck do parents always have to kill you at your best? Why do they always misinterpret everything you fucking say to them and take it the wrong way? Why can't you just make a comment and stay on your happy way like I fucking did? I AM SO MAD!!!!! This is STUPID! THIS IS POINTLESS!!!!

I could've done so much more. I could've said so much more. To him AND my mom on the phone. But her excuse was that she was at work, that's why she was talking to "calmly." I would've screamed obscenities and paid for the consequences later. I could've said so much more to him. I was screaming out of so much built up anger that I HAD to let go because I couldn't breathe anymore, and I felt like kicking him down, and punching him, and hitting him over and over and over and over. I pictured it all in my head while I screamed and it brought such mental satisfaction. I am so angry at how stupid this has gotten. How stupid they can both be. At why she never fucking believes me. SHE DOESN'T EVER BELIEVE ME! AND IT'S NOT FAIR! At how he tries to turn things around so he can be the victim AS FUCKING ALWAYS! It's not fair to live here with TWO HARDHEADED ASSHOLES. I want to scream so much more. I want to scream at the top of my lungs pure obscenities to both of them and make them feel how I feel when they pull shit like this one me. FUCK both of them. I don't care.